i have come that they may have life and have it to the FULL

-john 10:10b

full life hit me the other day. like really hit me. i know i have full life in christ. well aware. i know that's the only way i can truly live. but rarely do i acknowledge what that actually means. and when i think about it...it's true. i have honest to goodness full life. which duh i know but i never really think about. full to the point of overflow. joy in the lord. all that stuff is real. nothing fills me like the lord does. i have never been as satisfied as when i am in a right relationship with god. again...DUH. but seriously. i feel like sometimes i just take things for granted without realizing all this stuff is true. i mean i know it's true. but i can physically see the side effects of my relationship with christ throughout my life. that's crazy. it's not believing in some far off invisible god. he lives in us. he lives in me. and i see it. people see it. i've always known this is real. but it keeps becoming more and more apparent to me. i love that after five and a half years god can still amaze me. i hope he always does. and i hope i never forget what full life feels like. and how i wouldn't want to live any other way.


so, god, thanks for letting me live.