disappointment.

there is no worse feeling in the world than disappointing someone. my friend jess was recently talking about being late to her job as a nanny. and the whole car ride there she was just dreading facing that mom and showing up late. and i know that feeling. everyone hates disappointing people.

why don't we feel that way about god? when we sin, when we let him down, when we stiff-arm the creator of the universe- why aren't we torn up about it? yes we serve a loving, forgiving god, but i know i personally sometimes take grace for granted. i shouldn't want to disappoint the god i love. i shouldn't want to fall short. i should have a full heart of repentance when i screw up. i should be a little bit ashamed of my sin. i want perfection. i want christ. i do not want to let my god down. i know i will and i know he'll forgive me but i can't accept that grace without repentance.

i don't want to disappoint anyone. mostly my god. beating myself up about it won't help either, but acknowledging my sin is crucial. showing understanding of my shortcomings. disappointment is the worst thing to face. praise the lord for a god full of grace!