kony.

good gravy. i've never hated facebook as much as i do right now. a few nights ago the kony2012 video went viral. i watched it with my roommates who begged me to turn it off because "it's depressing" (and i could go on a whole other rant about living in our own little worlds and avoiding things because they aren't pretty...) i've been involved with invisible children for years and the video struck a chord with me, so naturally i reposted it. and oh my word. it has blown freaking up in the past few days.

i've learned some things about invisible children. things i didn't know before. maybe they're not the world's greatest organization. but i just cannot believe the backlash they're getting. especially from the christian community. i have never seen young people care about others in a wave like this before. i've never seen it be really popular to want to make a difference. and yeah there are far better ways this can be done. far more organizations people could support. but praise god people are thinking of others for once! whether it's because it's the just popular thing to do right now or because they really care, i am thankful to see facebook statuses that aren't about mean girls, broken hearts, or "bad days". it's a baby step. but it's in the right direction. we do not need to be knocking each other for what we support.

giving money to invisible children doesn't seem to be the best way to help right now. there really doesn't seem to be much we can do. except raise awareness. get this so popular that it gets into the hands of someone who can help. whether that is through invisible children or not doesn't matter. kony is a problem. something needs to be done. and this is a start. there are a lot of problems, and a lot of things need to be done about them.

but i am kind of appalled that we're judging and knocking what god puts on peoples' hearts.

so here. decide for yourself. if you choose to support IC, do it. if not, support whatever you want to support. take action. and rejoice when others do the same

I will follow You.

Where are You taking me?

I try to follow

But the path feels hollow-

Leading me nowhere with nothing to share and no one to see- me,

The real me,

Inside and out no fear or doubt that I am the one.

I feel like I’m swerving off the road,

Looping around trees and backtracking with every step I take.

I stumble stumble stumble

Trip all over every roadblock I face-

Not the case for those around me.

I get higher then face the fire

That reveals my dire need for Your empire.

Forward is relative I’m floating on clouds.

If only I can keep my heart open,

My arms raised,

My eyes to the sky.

Deny deny deny myself

Embrace embrace embrace the help

From the One who breathed life to my wings.

I want to go somewhere, everywhere, nowhere.

Eyes closed with a smile you lead me for miles-

Blinding, winding, finding nothing I want

And everything I need.

Keep me on my toes and out of the know

With nowhere to go but after Your heart.

Good good You are so good.

And I will follow You.

i wrote a poem about myself.

ha i literally just wrote a poem entirely about myself. just late night stupid fun.

I write everything I think and I usually rhyme,

Travel and experiences consume my every dime.

Taking pictures is what I do best,

I rarely get angry, worn out, or stressed.

Some days I just wanna hang out with myself,

I enjoy maintaining my physical health.

I put God first, others second, I’m last,

I’ll tell you about it whether or not you ask.

I could literally lie in a hammock all day,

Sur l'anglais je préfère parler français.

When I make a decision it’s almost never final,

I think music always sounds better on vinyl.

I’ll take tea over coffee and the book over the flick,

For sports I think snowboarding and surfing are sick.

Given the choice I choose to be outside,

Bike over car is my favorite ride.

Guitars are cool but I play the pian-uh,

My best friend is my sister, little Ariana.

I like to paint, construct, and create,

I’m stubborn, strong willed, and up for a debate.

There are very few things I would never try,

More often than not I laugh till I cry.

I have top five lists for any category,

For me sleep is never a major priority.

Few things are more important to me than art,

Love saturates my thoughts, my actions, my heart.

I like to cook, bake, sew, and crochet,

I’d make a bangin’ wife and mother someday.

My closet consists of thrift store finds,

I dress like nineteen sixty, seventy, or eighty nine.

My friends are ridiculous, obnoxious, but fun,

And my family will always be my number one.

So this is who I am, me in a nutshell,

If you don’t like it you can go to…..Taco Bell

lalalaaaa

disappointment.

there is no worse feeling in the world than disappointing someone. my friend jess was recently talking about being late to her job as a nanny. and the whole car ride there she was just dreading facing that mom and showing up late. and i know that feeling. everyone hates disappointing people.

why don't we feel that way about god? when we sin, when we let him down, when we stiff-arm the creator of the universe- why aren't we torn up about it? yes we serve a loving, forgiving god, but i know i personally sometimes take grace for granted. i shouldn't want to disappoint the god i love. i shouldn't want to fall short. i should have a full heart of repentance when i screw up. i should be a little bit ashamed of my sin. i want perfection. i want christ. i do not want to let my god down. i know i will and i know he'll forgive me but i can't accept that grace without repentance.

i don't want to disappoint anyone. mostly my god. beating myself up about it won't help either, but acknowledging my sin is crucial. showing understanding of my shortcomings. disappointment is the worst thing to face. praise the lord for a god full of grace!