dependence

i read my bible every day. once in the morning and once at night. if i don't i end up having a terrible day or bad dreams at night. seriously every single time. and i love that, keeps me accountable. but some days, like today, i end up with random passages like exodus 26 where it only talks about the color fabric should be and how many loops for the tabernacle. is this going to have any impact on my day? probably not. but still. i feel something when i read. i don't know if it's just obedience, that i'm putting god before sleep or whatever i would have done instead. i don't know if it's just the fact that it's god's word, that i love him so much that i am filled by anything he has to tell me no matter how relevant i think it to be to my life. but i am just fascinated by the difference in me when i spend time with the lord. and i love that i have a bad day if i don't read. i really can't do anything if i don't have god first. which is awesome. humbling.

and, in case you were wondering, the tabernacle should have ten curtains of blue, purple, and scarlet yarn with fifty loops per curtain. have a great day.